Behind the smile, I cry.
Behind the smile, I starve.
Behind the smile, I bleed.
Behind the smile, I suffer.
Behind the smile, I break.
Behind the smile, I fall apart.
Behind the smile, I slip away.
Behind the smile, I trace the veins in my wrist.
Behind the smile, I look at the bottles of pills.
Behind the smile, I'm dead inside. Dead. I'm fucking dead.

Behind the smile, the lies, the deceit and the fake images of being okay... I am not okay. I'm losing this game, I'm falling so fast. Blood, razors, pills, exercise, lies, not sleeping, must burn calories, must burn calories, starve, lie, starve, fall, cuts, bleed, razors, pills, knives, tears, pain, depression, suicide, constant depression. Dead. I can't see through the darkness.